I think about these things all day. The integrated circuit
(ref. #U101) probably contains only 2 or 3 KB of actual storage capacity.
But at only 17 cents when bought in bulk (orders of 101-200) I could
run away with a great deal. Maybe my system would build up quicker
if I started with such a small EEPROM size. Like a weightlifter hefting
loads, I too could condition my physical being to influence my mental
being. Fuck the spiritual.
I believe that falafel is the perfect food. Sure the food court
is crowded but I never have falafel made on a Monday. Even on Tuesdays
I sometimes find myself getting behind on the preparations of this
Middle Eastern species of delicious grain. I must learn to conquer
my laziness. The Pita Express is a real savior in this regard.
Thank god I found a table so quickly. I can hardly wait to cram the
fiber-enriched product down my gullet. Wait a minute. Maybe that was
just an acid flashback but I saw something in my peripheral that really
concerns me. No, probably another flashback.
I would know better than to make that connection in parallel,
wouldnt I? And I definitely have confidence that I can will
myself to subjugate a diode bridge. Im sure of it. Sometimes
its thoughts like these that really get me sweaty. I feel energized
and the pain in my lower back and abdomen isnt so bad. Its
starting. I can feel it happening right now. Todays Monday.
No delivery until Wednesday. Looks like another late-nite raid at
Radio Shack. That garbage is akin to McDonalds' cheap product. Made
with the cheapest ingredients. You are what you eat, right? But Im
not waiting until Wednesday.
I refuse to be distracted from my falafel. God, this lemonade is
great! The acidity clears my taste buds; it thoroughly washes my palette.
What a great combination of flavors. I never understood the chips
though. Its fries all the way.
Ok, that wasnt a flashback. What the fuck is that guy eating?
I cant let him see me watching him. He seems too out of it to
notice, like hes having a conversation with himself. Fucking
freak. He doesnt deserve the time hes stealing from my
lunch. I hate this goddamned food court. Ill start eating in
the fucking stairwell if I have to. Oh my god, that sick fuck is going
to bust his teeth cranking like that on those stale Macadamias or
whatever they are. I need to get out of here.
The amplification should account for loss in the alert generator.
Fucking mail-order! I need to have my order teleported to me or something.
When the technology arrives, Im there. I cant depend on
some schmuck making $10 an hour being late in building something that
could destroy his whole world. This project is bigger than him. Its
bigger than these oblivious ants wandering around this shopping mall.
But its not bigger than me. I am exclusively the only thing
being or inanimate object that is bigger than IT. Because
I am saddled with the duty to carry out what I know to be as important
as Gods work. And in the execution of my plan to carry out this
duty I know that where ever it leads me and whatever I find next to
accomplish on my list of demands, if I die I must have reached my
destination.
But if the CPU oscillators timing crystal is brought more than
.7 Hz off its resonant frequency by the natural metabolism of my body,
having been ill adjusted by the overly warm environment (humidity
especially) of this shithole, this MALL, the 1.5 microfarad fixed
capacitors will not give me the stored voltage Ill need to power
the CPU itself! Ive got to get out of here.
I better slow down, save some fries. Im starving but I need
an excuse to sit here, to watch this deranged fuck. Receiver
Electrical Parts List? Theres post-it-notes on the floor
with 4 character codes on them: C113, U100, U101
What is all
this shit? He must have found it in the garbage, maybe it was already
on the table when he got here. Probably cant even read or write
his own name. Why did he have to fuck up MY lunch? Go eat your goddamned
resistors somewhere else! Maybe I should just call the cops, that
would be the sensible thing to do. The humane thing.
Where is that theory/maintenance manual? I need to check the overall
frequency stability of the unit. This could be major. How could I
be so stupid! There is no room for events unplanned for! But wait
-- I can feel it now, somethings reacting. I can feel the blue
magnetism burning in my guts. The huge, stored amperage is radiating
from my brain down to the RAM halfway through my small intestine.
The power and synchronization is building me up; it's enforcing me
with a might that can only grow larger. Exponentially, my cells become
ionized -- negative voltage accumulating near my feet, then flowing
out into the earth. It feels good.
I know what its like to FEEL capacitance. Thats like trying
to explain red to a blind person. Its like describing
the concept of reading to an autistic kid. Where do you begin? With
the advent of the written word? Spoken word, even? YOU will never
know the difference between fixed and variable capacitance, the latter
adjusted by standing in a magnetic field produced by an open-coil
transformer wound with hundreds of feet of 1 gauge solid core copper
cable. The feeling of knowing UNDERSTANDING the exact
value, down to the nano-henry, of your own electrical worth.
Shit, hes getting up. Ok, be cool, take your time. Let him
get a lead and wait till its safe to follow. Theres nothing
worse than the ignorant scums who wont return their trays or
pick up their garbage. It reminds me of high school; I always wanted
to clean up that cafeteria. Just leave me alone with some 409 and
give me a couple of hours. I would take out all the trash and clean
the muck that has accumulated in the grease of the folding hinges
that work to conserve space. I despise myself for doing it but Ill
lose him if I have to walk across the aisle to the trash and recycling
island and back again. Damn, he left half of that technical paperwork
and hes hauling ass towards the steps. Cmon man, I really
dont feel like running today!
U122? It must be C101. Or were those the generic Radio Shack LCDs?
I knew Id pay for this lack of organization. Its spoiling
everything now. My minds eye must have cataracts. I could have
sworn that there were some extras lying on the workbench, maybe in
that little tray on my soldering irons base. Why cant
I remember? Think, dammit
. I still have time. Cant arouse
suspicion by sprinting through here like a madman. Why is it that
the insane always run? From what, really? Themselves probably. Poor
bastards. But theres no time for frivolous garbage. No time
for contemplating a mindset which Ill never comprehend. I need
to learn to worry more about that which affects me directly. That
which is meaningful. Not that which is not. What happened to the old
regimen wake up early, then push-ups, sit-ups, read the new
tech documents, 5-7 U102s, 10-12 C113s
thats
when progress was made. Ive done half the work of those days
in twice the time.
Oh, fuck it. Im not sure if its a bigger waste to stop
now after getting all sweaty or if I had just stopped after seeing
my lunch ruined. At least then I could have saved face and not expended
this wasted energy. Its my own fault; what business of mine
is it if some fellow wants to eat micro-electrical components? I make
a big enough deal about getting my falafel. But thats different.
Well, its for a higher cause! Funny, I say that now just after
downing falafel made by some fool who makes $7 an hour. What does
he know of Gods Work? How much does he have to tell about bearing
the load and having the responsibility of building a superior lifeform
from a terribly inefficient human? That falafel might have been par-cooked
the night before. And what do I do? Eat it anyway. This isnt
what I was taught. When did I become so sloppy? I chastise my former
high-school peers for leaving saliva-caked milk cartons on the floor.
Then I go out and eat bad falafel, the likes of which could easily
and severely stunt the progress of this plan. Its time to buckle
down. No more garbage. No more waste. I shall make Mondays falafel
Sunday afternoon. I shall salvage what I can from the freezer and
ditch the rest. No more bad falafel no more excuses either.
This is too big bigger than me. If I fail, someone shall surely
take up the slack, correct? I cant dwell on these things any
longer. If I get down to the grocer before they close at 7, I can
prepare a fresh batch for tomorrow morning and eat some when it cools
around 11. Its time I prove a bad choice wasnt made when
I was appointed to carry out the exercise which will eventually change
time. More falafel, less time. That will be my new motto.
My mantra, by which to ingrain the discipline I need to be alert,
ready and constantly working to achieve my goal.
Because I am saddled with the duty to carry out what I know to be
important as Gods work. And in the execution of my plan to carry
out this duty I know that where ever it leads me and whatever I find
next to accomplish on my list of demands, if I die I must have reached
my destination.