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"You're
still in bed?" Olivia said coming back from the beauty parlor;
giving him a look of dazzling disdain.
"Olivia," Byrom said smoothly since her name began with a
vowel but when he added that the custard stand was closed on Mondays
his whistles hit the fan.
She looked at him with a face that could have been his father's and
dismissed his come hither wave with contempt.
"Olivia?"
"I have a headache!"
"Olivia?" he whispered softer.
"Go to hell - whistling man!" she said turning her back on
him abruptly while taking off one earring.
"Why don't you open the stand on your own initiative and tell my
son that you will keep most of the profits? Are you afraid of Ronny,
Byrom?"
He recalled his father whom he called "the Old Warrior" in
honor of his harsh demeanor to what a gentleman owed to pride and arrogance.
His words still touched him deeply ..."Staying in one place Byrom
until one gets his bearings and then along will come good things that
of course might demand more from one and if he lets go, as far as progress
is concerned, he would have to face life with the consequences just
like the riff-raff who are too lazy to get work and so all their children
will have pockets empty of any possible dreams and they can't blame
us for their failures! " .... Byrom felt all the unease he felt
the day he told his father he was quitting the elite private school
and going to find a position, instead; knowing his father felt that
he was falling among all the masses who were deserving of an "ignorant
education" and only useful to labor at keeping the economy fueled
or to go to war and die when the country's interests were being endangered.
"A medal a day, Byrom, keeps the terrorist away!" ....
He would show this man whom he had sucked in his breath for - so much
respect he had for him - that he would make the best custard in Ohio
that even the glorious rich would enjoy. He would show his father and
Ronny Moneybags he could get big shiny medals.
"(Whistle) your (whistle) son-"
She interrupted his speech therapist's suggestion he whistle before
saying words beginning with a consonant so they would come out whole
by saying: "Well, mister person who was supposed to be named after
the great poet with the club-foot can you finish what you tried to do
this morning in a more successful way - this time?"
He could feel all the unhidden pall of irritation copulating among her
words. In a forceful move he mounted her but after a minute she pushed
him off saying he was the softest and quickest gun in the west and then
lifted herself wearily from the bed as if carrying all the burdens of
wives of rich and powerful men.
The very next day she told him to leave; that she no longer wanted to
be used as a connection to her son.
He wanted to tell her they were both using each other in a cynical way
but instead he tried to suck out pity from her by telling her - not
using the whistle - that he always felt like a motherless child; always
being eaten by bats, the shape of ladles with wings that his grandfather
had used on his head just because he did not know how to rotate his
foods properly and swallowed up by the long wooden matches his father
had used to burn his flesh for his having done another "fifth infraction".
How he envied his father's dedication to perfection.
"Olivia, do you believe the child is the father of the man?"
he said looking away from the shape of her eyes.
"Get out fool. You are no longer part of my life!" Olivia
said with the same disdain his father had used when telling him that
losing positions one after another was the action of a total failure
and indeed he was afraid he would not loan Byrom the money to get a
bridge that might have given him a smile and a better chance to succeed
in the art of making money.
"You'll never do any end runs with other peoples' money. You'll
be doomed to failure, Byrom, I'm afraid! You'll be a man with no smile
among a world of fools who would have been willing to stuff your pockets
with money - so you could have made them pseudo millionaires!"
....
Byrom stood in the hallway for nearly ten minutes after Olivia slammed
the door in his face.
"(Whistle) Father," he whispered but then quickly corrected
himself by saying loudly: "Olivia!" Olivia!"
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